Her

So, New Orleans was pretty much great. We stayed right in the French Quarter, about 3 blocks from the infamous Bourbon Street, and it was pretty much a party all the time. We played 3 concerts, and I think I did fairly well for not rehearsing for a month and then pretty much sight-reading some of the music we played. I got to listen to some great music, eat some great food, and just have a good time. I love it there.

But I keep thinking about her. I've been waiting to ask a certain girl out for far too long, and I'm just scared to do it. I keep telling myself (as well as those who I've talked to about this) that I don't want to make things weird between the two of us. But I can't get her off of my mind. The nights that I was drinking in New Orleans I pretty much just ended up talking about her. And most of the times I was sober during my month-long break from school I ended up talking about her, too. I want to stop the talking and start the actual asking.

And last night I had a dream about her. Well, not exactly about her, but I believe that it was about her anyway. I dreamt that I met a girl from far away, and as she was leaving after spending quite a bit of time together, I got up the nerve to ask her out, which didn't do any good because she was going away. But I ended up giving her my number so that we could stay friends. Now, what this dream tells me is that I'm not really afraid of the rejection. Well, I am, but it is far outweighed by my desire to have someone to just be there. It also tells my that I feel that if I wait to long, it may be too late. So, I need to do this. I need to ask her.

I just need to see her first.